Love but don't touch

this is what it feels like to be without mom. she is as visible as the world around me. she is in the flight of the birds that move in and out of my small perception of life.

i see her, just as much as i don't see her. she is closer than ever, yet untouchable.

she is in everything, yet i find her nowhere. 

mama, happy mother's day. i know that you hear me.